CAT-ASTROPHE10!

12th Jan, 2011. CAT results are out. And here I am going places, just to keep my mind off the disaster. Certainly  not the way I had pictured this day in my thoughts! Disappointment, is the name given to the feeling when certain events do not meet our expectations. Let alone what my parents' expectations, I myself feel alien to this world today. After all the build up due to my graduation disasters and my willingness to take up a challenge, I'm right where I started. Gaining experience and learning a lot, but it doesn't help in the immediate run.. nothing more than suggesting brilliant ONE-Liners to the lesser experienced! Disappointment forces me to think. And I choose to write whenever I'm thinking(Yes, that's how seldom I think :P)

Anyways, CAT is a competitive exam. The point is doing your best, which is supposed to be better than the rest.  The results are out, and they won't change. The hue and cry over the unfair results is what I've been reading about from last two days and I am vexed. It isn't fascinating me, the idea to rebel against the authorities. Especially since I heard this term: UNETHICAL! The results were available on the link on 3rd January and that was being spread like wild-fire! And if the result is infront of my eyes, I won't go back to the CATIIM website to check why the date had been pre-poned(this was my thought!).

I had complained to PROMETRIC(the agency conducting CAT) regarding the wrong questions, that were a part of my TEST and very much responsible for ruining it. In a time-based test, if I waste 25 minutes more than I've planned on a particular section, the balance is certain to be lost! Honestly, many people recognized the faulty questions and skipped them. But mine was a different story. I hadn't put in an effort to attempt the questions from topics that I didn't find convenient during preparations(especially with time-check). So, easy as those Quantitative aptitude problems looked, I got the solutions. But in those MCQs, this wasn't just it! I had to tick the correct option, but none of them matched my solutions. Trusting the might of CAT, it never occurred to me that the Qs could be wrong! It turns out they were. I solved them again... and again, but no solutions. Any other time, I would have not attempted them. But skipping those Qs wouldn't have landed me anywhere near the expected scores in that section.  So I don't regret this impromptu decision anyway. Sad that I ended up at 92%ile. Won't play the BLAME-GAME still...


And CAT 2009 was an example good enough. Yes, there was a retest, but concerned people know how much bigger the fiasco was! PILs, RTIs.. make it as complex as you can. Candidates are calling it injustice, or even a lucky draw!

Not that I believe in inaction. Or I feel helpless. Certainly not ideal they are, the results. The complaint I had made earlier, was the most I could do, before the result. But still, I have written to PROMETRIC, asking to give the details as to how the problem was taken care of; which the PROMETRIC CANDIDATE CARE had said they would(not individually, but collectively).

Because there is a 100%iler! There are hardcore CAT aspirants who are at 99.9x%ile, 99.8%ile etc. My point is, if someone has scored 300+ out of 450, it is very much possible. 'Luck' is infact something a winner has by his side, all the time! Any challenge in the world.. any competition, and luck has its role to play! If I am to win something, I would agree, it just isn't possible without the support of this magic-bird. A few thousand have attained more than 99%ile. Some of them would be sitting in top B-Schools in a few months' time! Thats where I wanted to be.. where they stand a chance to be, and I don't. Jealous, I am. But to my deepest core I know it is healthy and competitive in nature!

So I wont comment on whether I was more deserving than that XYZ or ABC.. but it certainly is worth giving another try! IIMs are always a hard chance, with the profile I have! When they are getting all the qualities that I possess with an excellent academic record, why would they prefer me? Well, I'll do my best given a chance in the interview! Also, CAT is what it is. Transparency is lacking but then, the odds of having it screwed were same for all of us. This is the thought that drives me, for now. Perhaps the question, why screw "anybody's test at all?" is the hot thing currently. But honestly I am running a marathon in my head! No more questioning the impossible. Acceptance, not of the injustice, but my failure.. again and again! I had the advantage of having all the time in the world. People who are working, had to put in all of their energy to make it! PROs and CONs are a part of every fight. Win or lose!

Well, as they say, Success is hollow, when it comes to learning from it, and Failure is the biggest teacher! Let me learn before the next 'big-one'. MICA stays the dream destination, and there is a different exam altogether. 20th February. Till then, no negative thoughts, no feeling pathetic about self, and no messing with the LUCK-thingy! Just the belief:

I CAN, AND I WILL!

On a lighter note: IIPM is after my life! They found my phone number from obvious sources, and now I receive 4-5 texts everyday.. called twice! Also a bunch of other B-schools promising a laptop, a blackberry and even a Freshers' in Goa! ;-) An epitome was reached when a certain Blah-blaah Institute of Management sent me a text that read - Dear MBA Aspirant, "Stop dreaming, and be practical!"..... :D

ACCIO FIREBOLT!

Yet another time! I wanna quit.. nothing philosophical, actually i have an exam tomorrow at 2.30 pm. Less than 12 hours from now, and i haven't touched the book yet..tried once though.. No idea what this subject is all about!

Not that time is less..  Personal best(damn right, just like a batsman's innings :P) has been passing an exam after a preparation of mere 3.5 hrs. Not afraid to put up this last night-fight anymore...these aren't fights anymore.. Just one confident bastard mocking at the exam-system!! but this night feels different.. I feel exhausted after all those MBA entrance tests.. And none of them going as good as I wanted them to..  a whole lot still to come!

To add to the long list of the "pain-in-the-ass"s, tonight I am getting the same old feelings for ENGINEERING. How much I hate this term.. how I regret one and just ONE thing in my life so-far! Actually me and engineering, we've both screwed each other equally bad.. we're kinda even :-) Still, these last night-fights make me realize how hollow this degree thing of mine is! The EXAMS.. the college... University.. Teachers.. This Fucking SYSTEM!! Oooops talking big again :P.... should shut up I guess.
You know what's my favorite song tonight? I'm already humming ...no dark sarcasm.. in the classrooom..

Whats up with this book.. no idea! opened a few hours ago... found something about GSMs, 3G and 2G..ahh
i know this technical shit! But that reminded me of A RAJA.. and moi instantly opens Twitter.. Some interesting reads here:-)

This isn't new..Here I am, in my sponge-bob-square-pants boxers and in the last 15 hrs, I've cooked some aweful Rice and seen Shawshank Redemption, The Godfather-Part II and of course India white-washing NewZealand in the ODI today \m/ 2 or 3 episodes of FRIENDS... And I think I'm blogging now :-P
Ohh and btw I just found The Social Network's OST!! Awe-fucking-some this night is gonna be!!
A Familiar Taste #nowplaying #inloop

I guess I'll not "quit" this time. Confidence is there.. Remember the Miracle of Istanbul!! Gerrard is right here, hanging around...er on the wall ;-)

That reminds of another MORALE-BOOSTER... I use it a lot... I'm a big fan of Harry Potter books... have been reading since I was a kid.. hence easy to believe in!! If you're intersted in it, you'll get whats going in my head...  In Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire, Harry had to  participate in the Triwizard Tournament... the very first task facing the deadly dragons... An advice to Harry and he uses this spell.. the two game-changer kinda words...

ACCIO FIREBOLT!!

FAITH

No BIG-BANGs have the answers. No Science ever created before does either. Yes, my question is the same as a million others. Just add a little arrogance. Only when I think "WHY GOD?"  is where I get some answers.

FAITH. Thats a powerful word indeed. Its psychological. I feel eased out when I have faith.. in something... anything. Let that be named GOD. Next step would be marketing it as something universal and omni-present. If doubts arise at any point in the future? Lets add FEAR. Heaven and Hell. Life, death, Shit-Happens etc. We are complete. A package. Branded and sold. Generation after generation. Welcome to the world, ya fools! Technically, new borns do have under-developed brains. So not so wrong, am I?

Looking back in time, GOD had been institutionalized long-long ago.. Some back then just chose to let the gradual shift be ignored; for some personal good perhaps. Now, all that remains is the smugness of these so-called men of various religions. I sound blasphemous? Well, you started it sire, now its just a regular Ping-Pong game.


For me, I have FAITH. I choose the easy path. Though I had things in complete control earlier, with no supreme power to the rescue. Now, I just feel relieved.. Lesser tensions. Leave it to the almighty, and take a breath! But my GOD doesn't ask me to offer prayers every morning and evening. Not the kind who is sitting with a RULE-BOOK over my head.

Boycott the religions? Well, I gotta socialise! And I already suck at it. You won't even talk to me next time, if I say what you believe in since birth is bullshit. And history stands by me, people get real emotional, just mention their religion and shit in the same sentence :)

I don't know how long things will work thus. Perhaps someday I'll have this quest of mine ended.. Or a big-bang will accidently create another Universe. An end to a cliched search, not with a result necessarily. Just keeping in my mind that at times no answer is the answer.

2 - 0

We never had a better game this season.. and Torres never looked his old self before that!! This game meant something... perhaps the wait is over.. Its time to see our favorite team win some good games.. And above all play some great football!!

Hodgson's methods good or bad... I care no more.. there's enough motivation in the team.. the players... the fans.. We'll rise and show what it takes to be the greatest club!!


How important this is for me?
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Every time I see this video there's a smile on my face.. and satisfaction in my eyes...

At the end of a storm,
There's a golden sky..

YOU"LL NEVER WALK ALONE!!

TEN reasons why I may turn into an ATHEIST

When I entered this world as a new born, it was all setup. People, places, religions, principles etc (etc refer to : bars, discs, strip-clubs, parliament). I started gulping the way an empty glass is filled (knowledge of course, I'm a new-born so far!). No direct experiences though. One day I learnt about the supreme power  that us lesser mortals pray, fear and respect & lie & cheat & even abuse & steal from & collect charity for & NOW even fight wars. And please! God.. if exists, is not your banker. Stop asking him for bungalows and big fat cars.
I followed all my counterparts blindly for a few years. Because I was told HE is perfect. See, if you're from some association for women's rights, neglect the previous line; and please don't jail me. SHE is perfect... too.

Good old days; me(in red) partying with God. Yeah.. we used to have a blast

But years passed, some experiences made my faith shiver. Faith in those who believed in God was gradually dying. The source may be corrupted!  Here's how it happened.


 




TEN


It was a dark night (effects, nights are always dark in this part of the world). I was sitting with my friends in a pub. Watching a football match. New in this arena. Suddenly HE entered. A creature all dressed in blue, fanning himself with what looked like a bundle of Rubles (Russian currency moron!). He booked a table by the name of Billionaire Blue, just beside us.

His eyes ran towards me, And as if his sixth sense realized I was a newbie; he approached towards me. I could see him clearly now, big eyes, chest as big as a SAMSUNG LED TV and the two trophy cases in his hand; of which one seemed untouched. He held his hand towards me to shake. Hands, you naughty naughty boy. Just than a friend of mine, heaved THIS towards me.

I ran out of the place into the dark, windy woods. Chills roller-coastering up and down my spine. I just saw a Chlesea FC fan! These creatures do exist in this universe of the almighty! My faith was badly shaken. This is how it all started.


NINE

India has produced some of the greatest musicians in the world. We have likes of A.R. Rahman in our Music Industry. BUT.. unbelievable - Pritam has fans in India. Trust me he does. And if you don't get the point I've already made, CAUTION! Here's why.

The term Music doesn't have a copyright. Thats how he named his thing Music too.
(Haha. I forgot. Pritam doesn't care about COPYrights)

EIGHT

It turns out me and my friends and my potential friends and my friends from the parallel universe are all GEEKS. We don't Party All Night. Niether do we have liquor flowing all around us. And oh yes.. We all have seen AMERICAN PIE series. O GOD.. if you're there.. you can't do this to me!!
 SEVEN

Talking of GEEKism, this was the reason why I cried alone after a movie, sitting in the wash-room in the multiplex the other day (and oh yes.. the movie was Taare Zameen Par, another reason.. they lifted my life-story!). I've been pretty active on social-networking sites lately. I have all the time in the world. Told you I don't party every day/all night.

I may use the word 'ya' for 'yes' while I talk. Same with 'yo', 'cool' or 'damn'. Words like 'dude' are found in the reputed English dictionaries (and it does not just mean a Camel's dick, so stop forwarding those messages). But there is this class of people who are the trend-setters. They have their own cult. Super-cool guys. Ask them and they'll tell you about " MAH at2de MAH lyf MAH bitch MAH a**hole" Cool ain't this? But how does it matter. I am not one of THEM :( And haven't seen these guys off the Internet either. Where do they live? No one ever figured out. The creator of this life, has been partial, for sure !!



SIX

Talking of social-networking sites, I discovered GOD has a pet name. GAWD. You can stuff as many Ws in there. How unreal. You're nickname is actually longer than your name! Sorry dude, I smell imperfection around you.


FIVE

This one was big. It was about How I met your mother (the SITCOM.. mate, relax!)The times when my faith was getting strong. Reason - Once I saw Barney.. talking to GOD (Its not just colorful, its a LINK moron!). I trusted him. Barney Stinson. Legenn.. wait for it...darryy. I read his blog everyday. The Bro Code - awesome.

But then this Robin thingy!! Barney caught feelings. Doomed. Here's where the faith turned from positive to 0 to negative.

FOUR

Existence of GOD's competitor - sachin_rt ; probably much more dependable.


THREE

 A movie named KITES was released this year. Not the problem. I never saw it. Its music was given by renowned Music Director(citations needed)  Rajesh Roshan. Before the music release, I found an article in Mirror (Not the UK one, not the washroom one either.. it was Pune Mirror) that told a story of how his nephew Hrithik loves Trance, and wanted a track of the same genre to be included in the repertoire. The article further said that Rajesh Roshan has been listening to world's best trance music (thats actually how he creates all his songs). This wasn't the painful part. Disaster struck when I ACTUALLY HEARD THE TRACK CALLED FIRE. 
 

TWO

I saw a video which was something like this.  NOOOO !! Don't click on this one! You'll blame me later on. I'll tell you, its some Justin Bieber guy crying babyy..babyyyy.


ONE
I saw this.

I just love PZ. Though I had never been relishing any thought of this kind... evverr. That doesn't mean I underestimated myself. And cruel world. I mean... Just look at this chhichhoraaa! He got PZ.. I got nuts..

THE END. (We are talking about Faith right now.. so just shut up and read below)


ZERO


Save Tigers, only 1411* left!
(Just added this in case the seasonal I-care-about-this feeling hits back after it boomed in the month of March earlier this year. If it does, this shitty piece might turn out to be the most read one on blogger\m/)

*The number is just symbolic(of the boom I mentioned),it may not be the exact count.


Important : By no means am I making a claim of being an Atheist myself.

PS    - This last image shows renowned Telugu actor Venkatesh, didn't mean to disrespect.
PPS  - No part was intended towards offending any individuals' choices.
PPPS- Clause no. 7 guys, you can take it as an offense though.