ACCIO FIREBOLT!

Yet another time! I wanna quit.. nothing philosophical, actually i have an exam tomorrow at 2.30 pm. Less than 12 hours from now, and i haven't touched the book yet..tried once though.. No idea what this subject is all about!

Not that time is less..  Personal best(damn right, just like a batsman's innings :P) has been passing an exam after a preparation of mere 3.5 hrs. Not afraid to put up this last night-fight anymore...these aren't fights anymore.. Just one confident bastard mocking at the exam-system!! but this night feels different.. I feel exhausted after all those MBA entrance tests.. And none of them going as good as I wanted them to..  a whole lot still to come!

To add to the long list of the "pain-in-the-ass"s, tonight I am getting the same old feelings for ENGINEERING. How much I hate this term.. how I regret one and just ONE thing in my life so-far! Actually me and engineering, we've both screwed each other equally bad.. we're kinda even :-) Still, these last night-fights make me realize how hollow this degree thing of mine is! The EXAMS.. the college... University.. Teachers.. This Fucking SYSTEM!! Oooops talking big again :P.... should shut up I guess.
You know what's my favorite song tonight? I'm already humming ...no dark sarcasm.. in the classrooom..

Whats up with this book.. no idea! opened a few hours ago... found something about GSMs, 3G and 2G..ahh
i know this technical shit! But that reminded me of A RAJA.. and moi instantly opens Twitter.. Some interesting reads here:-)

This isn't new..Here I am, in my sponge-bob-square-pants boxers and in the last 15 hrs, I've cooked some aweful Rice and seen Shawshank Redemption, The Godfather-Part II and of course India white-washing NewZealand in the ODI today \m/ 2 or 3 episodes of FRIENDS... And I think I'm blogging now :-P
Ohh and btw I just found The Social Network's OST!! Awe-fucking-some this night is gonna be!!
A Familiar Taste #nowplaying #inloop

I guess I'll not "quit" this time. Confidence is there.. Remember the Miracle of Istanbul!! Gerrard is right here, hanging around...er on the wall ;-)

That reminds of another MORALE-BOOSTER... I use it a lot... I'm a big fan of Harry Potter books... have been reading since I was a kid.. hence easy to believe in!! If you're intersted in it, you'll get whats going in my head...  In Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire, Harry had to  participate in the Triwizard Tournament... the very first task facing the deadly dragons... An advice to Harry and he uses this spell.. the two game-changer kinda words...

ACCIO FIREBOLT!!

FAITH

No BIG-BANGs have the answers. No Science ever created before does either. Yes, my question is the same as a million others. Just add a little arrogance. Only when I think "WHY GOD?"  is where I get some answers.

FAITH. Thats a powerful word indeed. Its psychological. I feel eased out when I have faith.. in something... anything. Let that be named GOD. Next step would be marketing it as something universal and omni-present. If doubts arise at any point in the future? Lets add FEAR. Heaven and Hell. Life, death, Shit-Happens etc. We are complete. A package. Branded and sold. Generation after generation. Welcome to the world, ya fools! Technically, new borns do have under-developed brains. So not so wrong, am I?

Looking back in time, GOD had been institutionalized long-long ago.. Some back then just chose to let the gradual shift be ignored; for some personal good perhaps. Now, all that remains is the smugness of these so-called men of various religions. I sound blasphemous? Well, you started it sire, now its just a regular Ping-Pong game.


For me, I have FAITH. I choose the easy path. Though I had things in complete control earlier, with no supreme power to the rescue. Now, I just feel relieved.. Lesser tensions. Leave it to the almighty, and take a breath! But my GOD doesn't ask me to offer prayers every morning and evening. Not the kind who is sitting with a RULE-BOOK over my head.

Boycott the religions? Well, I gotta socialise! And I already suck at it. You won't even talk to me next time, if I say what you believe in since birth is bullshit. And history stands by me, people get real emotional, just mention their religion and shit in the same sentence :)

I don't know how long things will work thus. Perhaps someday I'll have this quest of mine ended.. Or a big-bang will accidently create another Universe. An end to a cliched search, not with a result necessarily. Just keeping in my mind that at times no answer is the answer.